Why the name YouriX

2014-03-12 09:36:31 by YouriX

When i first gave myself this username i was following a trend. When i was younger X was put behind a lot of things like cartoons, movies and even on some food products. So basically it just sounded cool and I was making a lot of Drum and bass and Megamen remiXes back then. YouriX was in short Youri Extreme.


But now..


I have changed spirituality and physically the X stands now for something different. I have an X in my name for the same reason Malcom X has it.


I'll let Malcom X tell you why he has an X.



Now, I still use my last name and i haven't converted myself to the Islam (I just love bacon to much). What i did change is my music production.


Yes! An new age has begun for me. First i made Megaman remixes and then some really bad Techno songs from there i started producing DnB after that which seems natural I started making Dubstep.


My new phase in my musical adventure is now Glitch Hop, mix with some blues and Jazz. This is really new for me and I will make mistakes. But that is what makes it so much fun! I am starting from scratch discovering new things as I go along. Maybe over a year or two I might do something completely different again.


People change the YouriX from a few years ago is not the same YouriX you see before you. I might scare off some of the fan base I have now, but I need this so I can develop not only as a musician but as a human being.


And as a symbol of that I changed the color of my cd icons on my audio. Why not?


Here my new song:

Glitch, Blues. Baby!


You must be logged in to comment on this post.


2014-03-12 11:17:31

There's no such thing as "spiritual", the same way there's no such thing of what you "see" in an everyday cloud. It's all ambiguity and desperation of your psychical insubordination conglomerating to keep the "game" going; a game of illusions, also known as "the language game" -- it exists outside, as well as within. We keep the labels coming, and we keep assuming and pretending we know of anything about this world, others or ourselves, when we blatantly have zero tools to do such. Therefore your entire "spiritual" movement is existentially flatulent and psychically desperate. If you are needing to "change", then perhaps you need to stop "changing" on the surface, and understand what you are repressing inside you. The only logical reason why you want to change, is because you're "unhappy" -- if you don't know could cause this, you're changing out of sheer futility through futility as though the only thing you've managed to live through, is futility.

YouriX responds:

Aah, but i must disagree! Spirituality is more real than you think. Like in every human culture that exists there is a religion or at least a life style with some set of rules. Either there good or bad that is another discussion.

You may perceive life as an illusion but to me its as real as it gets. All the emotions that I have now are as real as you and me. Love, hate, greed all real. Have you ever fallen in love? Or get your heart broken? Its all real! :D

Stop changing? I think not! I do not believe in the evolution theory, but I do accept the fact that life micro evolves. We change not because we want to, but we have to if we want to survive. I simply just embraced my new incarnation. I have finally come to accept my newly found identity.

“Unhappy” is to much of a strong word. I rather say I am not satisfied. Not satisfied with my musical talent. It's far from terrible I know. But I can do better, much better!


2014-03-12 12:37:55

If spirituality was real, then what we "see" in a cloud would be real. Others cannot see what the other sees... Spirituality isn't a " thing ", it's a " projection "; a way of communicating deep correlations between your desires and secrets. It should never be taken in a literal manner, unless the host wants to undergo deep psychical inflammation and perceptive disruption. It deceives us -- our heart, our emotions, our needs, our desires, they are all going to deceive us because we're abusing our reward system and taking our pleasure for granted. If you are someone that believes they have found the "truth", and are also happy -- it's 100% you haven't found the "truth", because the "truth" only causes despair and misery in itself -- to a trained mind, it wouldn't be consequential -- it would be natural; a part of life.

The emotions you have are as real as we make it, yes. However we can observe the effects of emotions, because what creates "emotion" is physically tangible. What creates "spiritual", is NOT physically tangible -- it's a man-made construct based on ambiguity, misinterpretation and misconstructivism.

You haven't changed, my friend. We all change, with or without our consenting to an "illusory change". It's like a kid thinking they have the "strength" to jump in the pool; to get that girl; to face their abusive parent... It's an illusion based on survival. If you are wanting to "change", then your psychical domain is under serious fire that should not be feigned by "I'm changing for the better"; if you're changing, then there's something aloof -- this means that changing isn't going to solve it, it's going to bury the problem further. This is why people live multiple lives, and end up having to lie to everyone, because from the beginning, they have been escaping themselves, just like you are.

You're not satisfied because of issues. "Changing" ourselves isn't like changing our clothes. Changing ourselves is like getting a marker and making fake fingerprints on our fingers. It's only on the surface, and it doesn't hide what is really going on beneath the surface. In the end, you'll have to realize that life wasn't about being satisfied. If it was, there would be such a thing as "forever satisfied", but that too, is an illusion to feign the cold fact: "life is never fulfilling".

YouriX responds:

In my honest opinion spirituality is real. You may see it as a mere projection but to me it might as well be a physical object. But one question? What is spirituality really? Its meaning has changed a lot through the ages.

But to me it means a bond with God “Jah”. A spiritual friendship with a deity. Now, that you believe in God or not is not important right now. I just want to point out how I see spirituality.

So me having a bond with God is real (To me at least). You can compare it to someone who has an emotional attachment to certain objects. Either it was something they got from a loved one or something they have earned by working hard for it. And that bond that emotion is real! And in turn makes spirituality also real.

Now going on about change. Lets not forget where talking about my spiritual change in producing music and not my life. I think is really bold of you and kinda amusing that you say I have not changed, even though you just met me. You probably don't know my life's history or even know how I look like! Haha!

Or do you base your judgment on people you already know? But how many different kinds people have you met? I have traveled a lot at a young age. I lived in Curacao, Miami, New York, Canada, Haiti and finally the Netherlands (My mom traveled a lot, long story).

Because of this I am blessed with the ability to speak four languages. Therefore giving me the ability to speak to people with diverse backgrounds and ideas. To them spirituality is not a form of a cloud but a part of there body. That can be compared to a human organ.

Yet! You claim I have not changed and that my change is an illusion. And to me based on what I have learned and seen of this world people change! People who where once criminals are now some of the most sweetest people you have ever met.

I might see things as half full in your eyes. But fulfillment is possible and not that far away if your willing to look for it.


2014-03-12 14:49:02

The bond you have is duplicitous. Do you have any idea how often our hearts lie to us and cause utter destruction? A heart that talks is a desperate one. Why are you desperate to have an emotional bond with your projections? Are you alone? Scared? Fearful of something? Why not face it, rather than create other faces?

I'm not being bold about anything. Humans are no more complicated than the rest of the world -- in fact, the Universe is much more complicated than the human mind, and look how much of it we understand today. What you think, believe, write, how you do it, and how you respond, tells me a lot about you without any of your telling. I wrote that you weren't changing because I understand what causes people to want to change. I observe children always changing their names, their identities, their roles, their beliefs, throughout time. I also have experienced it, myself. I know what it was that drove me and them, as well as for you. You cannot hide behind "it's my life; it's my mind", I don't have to walk in your shoes or know you for more than a day, when everything that goes on in that head of yours has been a reflection of your past and a summary of your experiences -- it's all being projected into everything you do. Notice how you thought it was "amusing", that I "understood" you -- that's actually you feigning the possibility that just might as well understand you based on the small time frame of communicating. Do not under-estimate the power of analysis, my friend.

Spirituality isn't physical. You can't touch it. Nobody can. You "think" you feel it, but again, it's so ambiguous, that you'll just manage to fill in the holes with rhetoric. And even the definition of "spirituality" is leaving you with much more to desire. It's not clear, and yet it yields to clarity. It's ignorance of the "abstract" properties of the mind. Everything "spiritual", can be scientifically, psychologically and philosophically explained. Want to know something funny? Spirituality can't even demonstrate itself. It just leads to more question begging.

People change, I have stated. People "wanting" to change, is entirely different from "change". When someone "forces" change, that is not "real" change. It's an illusion; a scapegoat to feign what is truly happening inside yourself.

(Updated ) YouriX responds:

I do agree that the heart is and can be deceptive. I believe in a bond with God because to me there has to be a creator of the universe. The world around us is just way to beautiful to be just a coincidence and I honestly believe that to be true.

Also once again, I have to disagree humans are far more unpredictable then you think. You might have figured me out partly. Again “partly”. Just like I can assume that you are someone who might be over thinking things or has read one to many books about philosophy or other books in that nature and you also seem very intelligent.

Still! Even with this information I have of you. I still don't know you that well. I have no idea who you really are. So I cant judge if you are a person who has gradually changed or willingly.

Change on the other hand is something you have to want. You cant really force change you will it.
I also know people who refuse to change and suffer because of it. At some point in your life you have to make that decision.

For crying out loud there are people out there who are 30 and still have a mentality of a insecure teenager. But if they start with wanting to become an adult or at least a decent human being then it is not forcing change but encouraging it.

Now, in my case I have changed and I simply made a news post announcing my musical and spiritual transformation.


2014-03-12 16:30:18

Think of it like this: A skyscraper. Which is more important? The part reaching for the sky, or the base? Which makes more sense? A god bigger than a universe, or an atom smaller than anything in the universe?

They are unpredictable to you, like when you first play any game, whether it be a FPS, RPG or arcade game, you do not understand it; it appears you'll never understand the game because you are not the game. However you may come across avid players that completely "own" the game, as if they were a "god" that controlled the aspects (things we never thought to control) of the game to their unimaginable ability, which is what we call "skill". The mind is really good at thinking it can't think of anything else, when there is never enough to think about. We will always come to new notions, as I will always come to new realizations on how to break people down, to the point it's becoming as easy as breaking down the basic math formulas. Now don't get me wrong, there's never a moment in my life where I feel I am better than others because I understand them more they understand themselves. The same way I don't think I am better than a math formula because I understand how to break it down.

Information isn't what you need to break me down. You have to understand what causes each reaction; you have to know if I am hiding anything that could lead to opening me up like a formula, and finally you have to understand that you are not "you", to break people down. This means if you want to understand me, or the world, you HAVE to understand yourself -- this includes your "inner monster"; something a tremendous amount of people would rather die before accepting.

If you will it, you want it. It's a desire. You are "forcing" reaction, by acting on misinformation. The same way I can go to a funeral of a dead person, to later find out the person is still alive, yet I acted on this "lie". Your "change" is a "lie". Yet it feels real when you act on it at that given time. Think of your "change" like a realization. Have you noticed that realizations wash away, and every following realization feels as "new" as the first? It's an illusion. It's the same reason why people can't stop falling back into sex, drugs, drinking and being arrogant.

Maturity isn't "change". You're just falsely making that distinction, when there are more axiomatic and reasonable distinctions to express.

(Updated ) YouriX responds:

Once again, you're over analyzing things. I think this conversation is going everywhere and nowhere.

So let us focus...

You say I have not changed musically.
I say I have changed musically.
You believe that change I am going through is an illusion!
I believe the change I have is real just like the emotions you and I have.
You say the reason it is an illusion is because I am forcing change.
I say I am not forcing change but I am simply coming to terms or I have simply noticed that I have changed. Either it be a spiritual epiphany or a phase I am going through.

But how can you be so sure that the information I have is flawed? Heck! How can you be so sure that the information YOU posses is the right one?

I know the information that I have is the right one. Simply by the way it has changed my life so positively.

Now more then ever I am motivated to go on with this new found change! I love it and I have been in this phase for over 5 years and loving it more and more as I go on. :D


2014-03-13 11:24:09

It's tricky to understand; I don't blame you for misunderstanding how complex forcing "change" can be, much like forcing "love" to be more than a chemical reaction. Remember in the beginning how I explained that you can change on the surface (i.e musically), but deep down, what you did not want to face (hence the change being forced by you) is still running afoot. You may "experience" change in the sense you can be a different person than you were before, but as much as it may feel like a "new beginning", it's more like "a new house, with a secret basement where you put everything from your old house in, being locked away in darkness". Let me ask you this. If you are "coming to terms", explain to me how "changing" (literally grabbing a whole new sheet of paper, and abandoning a project made up in years) has any relevance to the problem beforehand, and will be any better in years to come (like it won't become corrupted soon enough).

People cut themselves; they think it's "positive" -- not all false positives equate to a true positive.

Your information is certainly flawed, because you have to think: What does a "new beginning" have to do with your old story? Nothing. So how is it "fixing" the problem, if it's literally another reality you are creating, while burying the other?

My information isn't flawed because I'm using the self-correcting principles of reality to argue your metaphysical misconstructions.

YouriX responds:

“My information isn't flawed because I'm using the self-correcting principles of reality to argue your metaphysical misconstructions.” - Insanctuary

And here lies the problem! And why this discussion will never end. I think my information is the right one and you think your information is the correct one. Even though we both might be wrong.

This reminded me of something my professor said in college. There is no point in having a priest have a discussion with an atheist. Because by the end of the day both of them will end up more of a believer of there own beliefs.

All where doing is defending our believes. None of us is going to lose or win, because both of us will not back down. If we could live forever this discussion would literally last forever.

It was fun while it lasted! Maybe next time will discus other subjects in the near future when I make a new blog.

Laters! ;)


2014-03-13 13:46:11

Let me explain something real quick: "I think therefore I am" - Descartes

Let's start with "I" -- well, there's no "I", hence why you cannot communicate yourself alone, such as "I"... I what? You'll have to refer to "I" with other constructs to express "I"; "I...am", "I... am not". As you can see, it's relatively easy to change the entire representation of meaning by simply adding the term "not", which creates a "negative position" out of a "positive position". This is similar to how you can say "there is a god", by simply putting "a", instead of "no". This came from the question "is there a god", or whatever term they used back then to express that "totality". Notice how a question (is there a god?) became what appears to be an answer (there is a god), by simply moving two words, thus demonstrating how easy it is to screw with language.

Next up, is something more deep and complex. Our thoughts are not "our" thoughts, therefore "to think" does not entail "to be". The thoughts come and go, with or without our consent. Some thoughts are on the conscious border, while other thoughts are buried deep within the subconscious. If he had control over our thoughts, then we could have argued that those thoughts are our thoughts... much like parents don't "own" their child, as they aren't truly the "parent", which is why a irresponsible, ignorant girl can get knocked up and still be a "parent", when in reality it's taking an already existing system and pretending it's ours. Thoughts are information. Information has to be gained, therefore if people want to argue their identities, then they have to explain why we are defined and influenced by our surroundings and not ourselves. Therefore thoughts are not "ours", which proves Descartes is wrong. Thinking has zero correlation to "what we are", if we are anymore than "information".

This means that I'm still correct in my assessment because my way-of-argument is realistically prone, in that I am asking you questions and allowing you to come across your own contradictions, yourself, by applying my vast knowledge of how the human mind works in relation to the non-human world. You have already shown signs of wanting to believe what you want in spite of the contrary evidence, which already tells us both that I'm not the one that is unable to grasp the cold, metallic world we live in -- it's you, my friend.

(Updated ) YouriX responds:

Well, that was quick...
Good luck living in the cold, metallic world!


2014-03-13 19:00:36

I never implied that was all there is to life, hence I have strong emotions, virtues and understanding of human relations.

The fact you responded to that, and only that, tells me you do not have the slightest clue what type of person I am.

What kind of person am I?