If spirituality was real, then what we "see" in a cloud would be real. Others cannot see what the other sees... Spirituality isn't a " thing ", it's a " projection "; a way of communicating deep correlations between your desires and secrets. It should never be taken in a literal manner, unless the host wants to undergo deep psychical inflammation and perceptive disruption. It deceives us -- our heart, our emotions, our needs, our desires, they are all going to deceive us because we're abusing our reward system and taking our pleasure for granted. If you are someone that believes they have found the "truth", and are also happy -- it's 100% you haven't found the "truth", because the "truth" only causes despair and misery in itself -- to a trained mind, it wouldn't be consequential -- it would be natural; a part of life.
The emotions you have are as real as we make it, yes. However we can observe the effects of emotions, because what creates "emotion" is physically tangible. What creates "spiritual", is NOT physically tangible -- it's a man-made construct based on ambiguity, misinterpretation and misconstructivism.
You haven't changed, my friend. We all change, with or without our consenting to an "illusory change". It's like a kid thinking they have the "strength" to jump in the pool; to get that girl; to face their abusive parent... It's an illusion based on survival. If you are wanting to "change", then your psychical domain is under serious fire that should not be feigned by "I'm changing for the better"; if you're changing, then there's something aloof -- this means that changing isn't going to solve it, it's going to bury the problem further. This is why people live multiple lives, and end up having to lie to everyone, because from the beginning, they have been escaping themselves, just like you are.
You're not satisfied because of issues. "Changing" ourselves isn't like changing our clothes. Changing ourselves is like getting a marker and making fake fingerprints on our fingers. It's only on the surface, and it doesn't hide what is really going on beneath the surface. In the end, you'll have to realize that life wasn't about being satisfied. If it was, there would be such a thing as "forever satisfied", but that too, is an illusion to feign the cold fact: "life is never fulfilling".
Insanctuary
There's no such thing as "spiritual", the same way there's no such thing of what you "see" in an everyday cloud. It's all ambiguity and desperation of your psychical insubordination conglomerating to keep the "game" going; a game of illusions, also known as "the language game" -- it exists outside, as well as within. We keep the labels coming, and we keep assuming and pretending we know of anything about this world, others or ourselves, when we blatantly have zero tools to do such. Therefore your entire "spiritual" movement is existentially flatulent and psychically desperate. If you are needing to "change", then perhaps you need to stop "changing" on the surface, and understand what you are repressing inside you. The only logical reason why you want to change, is because you're "unhappy" -- if you don't know could cause this, you're changing out of sheer futility through futility as though the only thing you've managed to live through, is futility.
YouriX
Aah, but i must disagree! Spirituality is more real than you think. Like in every human culture that exists there is a religion or at least a life style with some set of rules. Either there good or bad that is another discussion.
You may perceive life as an illusion but to me its as real as it gets. All the emotions that I have now are as real as you and me. Love, hate, greed all real. Have you ever fallen in love? Or get your heart broken? Its all real! :D
Stop changing? I think not! I do not believe in the evolution theory, but I do accept the fact that life micro evolves. We change not because we want to, but we have to if we want to survive. I simply just embraced my new incarnation. I have finally come to accept my newly found identity.
“Unhappy” is to much of a strong word. I rather say I am not satisfied. Not satisfied with my musical talent. It's far from terrible I know. But I can do better, much better!